Here is an oldie but goodie from the wordpress archives....
I was dreaming when I wrote this, so forgive me if it goes astray. Ok, I wasn’t dreaming but you have to admit that was a pretty cool intro to a post that is clearly about Prince, right? No? *shrugs* Anyway, it’s been a long week and I have been thinking about this blog post every day for the past nine days. This was supposed to be my post about my birthday month, titled Awesome April with this picture as the header.
My baby colored it for me as a birthday gift😍.
I was going to detail all of my wonderful birthday month memories, including one of the many highlights; attending the amazing show, ‘Prince: A Piano and A Microphone’ at the Fox Theatre. But as you know, Prince passed away a week after that performance. I have been dealing with different stages of grief since that Thursday. Now I know these aren't the actual stages of grief but this is what EYYYYEEE've been going through. First, there was the initial shock, soon followed by sadness. Next came the cravings as I couldn’t stop listening to his music. I call this stage Insatiable(see what I did there? If not, stop reading) Then my fatgullswag grew into this monster that could not be stopped as I ate about 10,000 calories one day. (I now know that I was trying to physically feel comfort) Then, there was anger that was triggered every time I saw this post on FB.
After anger, came a small amount of healing as I could actually listen to Purple Rain and Adore without crying while rocking back and forth like a crack head without a hit. And now, I am at peace. I attended a vigil in his honor Thursday night and was able to say my final goodbye and thank you.
*I think she was Appolonia😂😂😂😂*
I have found the most comfort in tweeting his twitter account with his song lyrics, hoping he responds or at least those searching his name will see them and see how poetic he was. I’ve painted FB purple with his song lyrics as well for similar reasons but also because FB didn’t do any kind of tribute to him. I kept logging on looking for SOME THING! No ‘Purple Out’ your profile or no ‘What is your favorite Prince memory/song question popping up when you first log on(like that ridiculous ‘let’s celebrate National High Five day’ foolishness). Zuckerberg and Co. didn’t do anything for Mr. Rogers Nelson so I felt I needed to. Plus it aggravates the folks that don’t like him so I’m going to keep doing it.
I’ve loved Prince’s music for as long as I can remember loving music. My friends and family all know the story of how I was introduced to him. As long as they understand my grief, I really don’t care if anyone else does. What I would like to share is some of those songs that I love and how they relate to my Fab Five. Now, there is no way that I can list a favorite Prince song. That man has a catalog of music that would take months to go through. And my favorites/needs change depending on my mood, relationship status, season, weather, etc. There is likely a Prince song or lyric that I can listen to no matter what I am feeling or experiencing to either provide clarity or improve my mood. It took a lot of thought, listening and praying to come up with my Fab 5 list of Prince songs, and I’m sure by the time this post is finished I will have changed it fifty-leven times!
I will start from the top of the tree(see above Fab Five link if you don't know what my tree is) and work my way down. I think that will be easier.
Fun: Let’s Go Crazy, Purple Rain, 1984. This beat just makes you want to dance. It's one of those songs that people will think of when they think of Prince. And the lyrics 'We're all excited. We don't know why. Maybe it's cause. We're all gonna die. When we do. What's it all for? You better live now before the grim reaper comes knocking on your door.' reminds me to live life now! We never know how much time we have left so ENJOY every day.
Finance: I thought this was going to be hard but his song Money don’t Matter 2 Night popped in my head so quick. It's from the album Diamonds and Pearls released in 1991. This song talks about three different financial scenarios. A man with a gambling problem, a person who trusts the wrong person with his money, and how our government spends money on the Gulf War just to control oil.(but y'all just think he's a freak in butt out pants 😒) They lyrics confirm that while finances are important they aren't my first priority. 'That's when you find out that you're better off making sure your souls alright. Money didn't matter yesterday and it sure don't matter tonight.'
Family: Purple Rain, 1984. This was hard. I actually wrote this one last. About 7 years ago I started doing more than just listening to his music I started trying to be open minded and understand it. Purple Rain was one of the first songs I understood. Three verses addressed to three different people in his life. His family, his love, and his band(friends) For me, it would be the same. Listen to it again....
Fitness: Thieves in the Temple, Graffiti Bridge, 1990. Out of all of his songs, I probably listen to this song the most. The temple is your body, mind, and spirit. When I need healing(physical, emotional, or spiritual) it reminds me that I am strong enough, I’m worthy enough, and I’m smart enough to fight anything that is up against me. Even if I’m fighting against myself! I can’t pick a favorite lyric because the entire song describes that fight I have every day. Those daily battles against life and what comes our way. Love will save us. Sometimes I replace the word Love in the lyrics with Lord it still works.
Faith: I’m not going to try to just choose one in this category. To me, Prince was one of the most spiritual lyricst I know(emphasis on EYE. I. Me. So don’t debate me. Debate darling Nikki, which also has some spiritual message. Again, don't debate me. Debate Wendy or Lisa). So I picked my top 3. The Ladder from Around The World In a Day, 1984, 7 from Love Symbol, 1992 and I would Die 4 U from Purple Rain, 1985. If you listen to The Ladder and 7, they are clearly spiritually based lyrics. The Ladder is about finding a path to salvation and 7 references the seven deadly sins. Initially I thought I Would Die 4 U was a love song to a woman but after listening again it's really a love song from Jesus to us. Who else died for you? 'You're just a sinner I am told. Bring you fire when you're cold. Make you happy when you're sad. Make you good when you are bad. I'm not human I'm a dove. I'm not conscious I am love. All I really need is to know that you believe. I would die 4 U' That's Jesus. So next Easter go ahead and sing that in church.
Ok maybe not.....
If you put a gun to my head and made me pick one Prince song that I loved above all, I would have chosen Adore or Kiss(which in my head stands for Keep It Simple Sweetie. My motto. Prince may not agree but you can’t ask him now😛). But after having such an amazing month, having seen him in concert in what may have been his last performance of his tour, and all of the circumstances surrounding the tour and the concert that night, I will now say my favorite song(in this moment) is Sometimes it Snows in April, Parade, 1986.
Here are some of the lyrics…
Tracy died soon after a long fault civil war. Just as I wiped away his last tear. I guess he's better off than he was before. A whole lot better than the fools he left here. I used to cry for Tracy because he was my only friend. Those kind of cars don't pass you every day. I used to cry for Tracy because I wanted to see him again. But sometimes sometimes life ain't always the way.